Feel the darkness Creep into my life Knew it was a matter of time Before it reared it’s impish head In the garden The snake inside the tree It’s like I’ve bitten the apple Everything must decay For life to carry on So why was it my misfortune That kept your world alive? I’m trying to live my lullaby But you’ve taken that away What was left for me? I feel you’re no longer there And I’m talking to the void Screaming mind Purposeless Relative Starless fear Who chooses the winners and losers? Is it by design? Is it by the role Of the dice? Is it a master plan And do we all fall in line? Then freedom of choice Truly is trickery Drifting through space In this constant void Trying to find Happiness and meaning down the line I’m trying to live my lullaby But you’ve taken that away What was left for me? I feel you’re no longer there And I’m talking to the void Screaming mind Purposeless Relative Starless fear Just give me a sign That you’re really there An assemblance of order This doesn’t seem fair But is fair irrelevant? Just who do I think I am? All are lost at sea Nothing is owed to me I just want be fancy free To live in bliss To exist in society I’m trying to live my lullaby But you’ve taken that away What was left for me? I feel you’re no longer there And I’m talking to the void Screaming mind Purposeless Relative Starless fear Screaming mind Purposeless Relative Starless fear

The sky never looked so dreadful before It’s painted in grey that never ends All I am is bare bones and skin Just what will be my end The cage or the oven? We act like we are strong And can resist the power of the raging mob It’s a cancer of our existence To make the other get on their knees Begging please Led by the oligarch or revolution fiend Those who claim to be our savior or son When each motherfucker on this planet wants a prophet (profit?) A post modernist winter dread Our hearts so callous, we no longer value life We act like we are strong And can resist the power of the raging mob It is a cancer of our existence To make the other get on their knees Begging please When will we ever learn what is right and what is wrong? When the powers that be, fill us With lies and uncertainty To keep us fighting and from turning our guns on them?

On a day So full of dread Dead of Winter All to myself The rain Taps At my window Like a ravens beak Afraid Of what is inside Watching every Step that I make For the outer Dark Awaits With a Twisted Smile On that day I ride the hearse To the place up in the Stars I will lay My guns down Take a train To the great Unknown

Whenever I gaze into the stars I’m frightened of what lies beyond That fate is bound by eternity Dreamed by the Gods in space or at the depths of the sea They’re coming to take us all It’s the end of who we truly are The truth is we were always insignificant To eternity and the masters of reality I feel I could fall into the depths of space The earth spinning queasily below me And all this pleasure and pain is for nothing Inconsequential to the bigger questions The times I’ve struggled to be free The truth is it never really mattered Compared to the limitless out there All of our existence is on borrowed time They’re coming to take it all Including our sanity And here I sit in a padded cell The screams out there Sound like I’m in the depths of hell They’re coming to take me away…

Felt a chill Run down my spine Death bled From the walls Just like wine And the rotten stench Of tragedy Brought many a man To their knees Can’t escape This Victorian home An ancestral rite Yet, it’s inherited me And the happenings Within this space Led me to my death Now screaming in your face Aeons before That time forgot Within the grasp Of memory Gazing out at the rain Reliving the terror That keeps me here I long to be free From this place Even if, I no longer exist In a void Of nothingness

Staring at a painting That wears my own face An aging capsule Of the mortality in me Ageless and callous Against meanings natural law A ghost to those who feel They don’t feel me at all They move on without me I’m watching them fade and die My conscience draining My mask an alluring disguise Before my lonely ey-es Before my lonely ey-es Years of decadence You mean nothing to me For I’ve worshipped only beauty And sensuality And even if I lay with you It’ll be your mistake Our souls will not touch Only our bodies will copulate You move on without me I’m watching you fade and die My conscience draining My mask an alluring disguise Before my lonely ey-es Before my lonely ey-es Dark thoughts in the limitless Of cyclical eternity From this mortal coil I long to fly from thee I gaze into the mirror I’m frightened at what I see This hideous creature Staring back at me Staring back at me-e Staring back at me-e Into my lonely ey-es Into my lonely ey-es Into my lonely ey-es

Inside your lust For the first time Is like being bit by a vampire When you hold me so tenderly In your soft arms Illuminating the darkness of my sexuality Lasciviously you lead me Into your kink anatomy Coaxing till I take a bite As soon as you thrust into me Pleasing me all over my body Never been so in love You hold me like I’m yours Fondling every erogenous part of me Even in my mind Metamorphosing me, till I’m speechless gazing in your eyes Reeling in our sensual, heightened, reality The moment when we climax When lust turns alchemically To a passionate love Oh, the pounding of my tale, tale, heart Ethereally, So blissfully And then I fall asleep, in your loving arms

Sitting in a monastery of black There is no way to turn back Fore he’s got me in his death trap Sitting in a monastery of black Fate is an authored grand design Just get me out of here before I loose my mind Fore I’m stuck inside my hamster wheel Fate is an authored grand design Caressed by the kiss of death The cold of outer dark, the chill of my bones Fore I can taste the mouth of the reaper herself Caressed by the kiss of death The shadow follows wherever I go The dark night of my soul His insane laugh and piercing smile The shadow follows wherever I go

When she wakes into her dreams Her life’s a giant scream There is no such thing as sleep When your mind is working against you It’s beyond this realm of lies Let the monster of chaos rise Just look into his eyes Controlling your every thought And she says that she never dreams Cause her head is filled with screams And she says that she never dreams Cause her head is filled with screams Beyond the wall of sleep Lives the shadow in an unlit attic As you wield your candle light The creatures chatter and scatter Into the subconscious mind To keep your demons at bay You have to learn to do the dance With the stranger who lives inside And she says that she never dreams Cause her head is filled with screams And she says that she never dreams Cause her head is filled with screams And after the battle is won Your soul will be alight You’ll see meaning in everything Even your carnal desires Yet you’ll always come back To the devil that lives inside Learn the lesson again and again Flat circle of darkness and light And she says that she never dreams Cause her head is filled with screams And she says that she never dreams Cause her head is filled with screams

Feel the clouds In the sky How I wish I would die In my world Where no one can hurt To myself With no one to hold Is it true Everyone dies? All alone Do we fly? Set me free To the sea Infinity I could jump Off this cliff To a place I no longer exist Or could it be I’ll start it again With this pain And all of this sin? Is it true Everyone dies? All alone Do we fly? Set me free To the sea Infinity If it could be The only reason to live Is that I should truly exist To appease those that I love To create Or for a heaven above Is it true Everyone dies? All alone Do we fly? Set me free To the sea Infinity Is it true Everyone dies? All alone Do we fly?

Neath the navy blue sky Below the twinkling stars I walk with you Beside the lagoon green Of the roaring sea In the cold summer wind It’s hard to believe In all this interstellar bliss We exist and collide Neath this heavenly crown I tread the soft sand Far from reality Your hand in mine In our fantasy land Your purple dress And your smoky eyes Of beaming blue It’s hard to believe In all this interstellar bliss We exist and collide Neath this heavenly crown Upon this rock We consecrate our love In a warm embrace After the climactic peak I kiss your head You kiss my chest It’s hard to believe In all this interstellar bliss We exist and collide Neath this heavenly crown Somehow, in this cosmic dark We found this moment In time and space

The clouds in the sky Echo, my state of mind I’ve nothin’ to look forward to All I wanta do is fall asleep with you To dream Of a different world I’m all-alone Getting old Reality A disgrace Your love for me? Has been misplaced The clouds in the sky Remind me of your foggy eyes Pictures of you In black and white Come over here Stay with me tonight My autumn queen Of the stars A crooked Exquisite smile Beige hair Eyes of blue Lying ‘tween another’s thighs Now I’m lost With no where to go Trudging Through leaves like snow All alone, in the pourin’ rain A melancholy of clouds Like Novocain

I remember a time So long ago When freedom rained From blue sky Lush green fields of youth Out of time There’ll never be days Quite like that again Such a shame I’ll never be there again Such a shame I’ll never live there again And every summer Fresh as a peach Every day The sun’s warmth shined down on me The clean air The smell of the trees A mind so innocent Once free Such a shame I’ll never be there again Such a shame I’ll never live there again

Dreamed so many dreams And now it seems This is the thing that will take me down Started as something small Then it grew so high Now the sun tastes like parched sand Will it take me? Will it break me? Will this be the end of it all? Chaos found me Dark arms surround me One trip, a long last fall My only fear Is that I’ll leave Like a tree doesn’t make a sound The only thing That makes me smile Is that the pain will soon go out Will this take me? Will this break me? Will this be the end of it all? Chaos found me Dark arms surround me One trip, a long last fall At this time I feel My sanity shed Into that cosmic abyss I hear it calling my name From the other plane… Ah-ah And all the lies I told And all the truth I told And all the love I felt And all the love I gave And all the tears I shed And all the tears I made And all the things I hate And all the things I love And all the friends I made And the women I loved And the women I laid And all the lives I touched And all of those who don’t know my name And all the things I’ve felt And all the dreams that escaped And all the dreams I made And all the times I ignored The strong hand of love In the shadows of despair Not even knowing you were there Will all be gone in this moment If only, in the memory of others

Thinking of the life that I have led Stuck inside this large abyss Muses I’ve loved and I have lost Sent to me from heaven above And yet I’m sitting by myself Alone and buried in my thoughts How many years have I got left? My bleeding heart is on the shelf The mermaids call They take me to the waves where I am free The rolling tide I sink into the bottom of the sea Sensually In fantasy When I was just a little boy I thought the world was made for me I wandered alone in reverie Saw the worlds they didn’t see And now that I have grown old Forget the worlds that I had known Watching time clocks pass me by Another day without a home The mermaids call They take me to the waves where I am free The rolling tide I sink into the bottom of the sea Passionately In fantasy Just when will I go back Dream dreams that come to life? Forever struggle to survive Just so I can stay alive Use this gift that I have got Helping others to escape From the working day life To briefly live in fantasy The mermaids call They take me to the waves where I am free The rolling tide I sink into the bottom of the sea Delicately In fantasy

I felt like I fell into a dark and beautiful dream My voice cracked The night we hugged each other And you were in tears I could feel your quivering breast Your sweet, wet, face pressed against my chest And I felt the desolation of your life In, this, your darkest hour Run through my very soul It seemed we were alone Amongst the piercing, twinkling, white, stars That would die out in time In the obsidian, midnight, bleak winter, sky While in your hugging embrace You caressed my back, adoringly, rhythmically, smoothly, and sensually, with your soft, slender, supple, fingers This was unexpected How loving, sensual, and personal you were Your heavenly loins pressed comforting and warm, in endearment, against mine You spoke softly, sweetly, girlishly, and adoringly into my chest My heart went soft, in warmth, like honey, at hearing your voice Speaking as if we were already lovers As I could feel your warm breath The smell of the sweet, womanly, fragrance of your soft, thin, long, dark brown, hair And all I could think is this is the best hug I have ever had in my entire life I never want to forget this moment with you So dark and exquisite I hope I comforted you, like a blanket, in the warmth of my empathy and tenderness The gloomy essence of your life and this exquisite moment echoed, so much In my mind, that I could hardly sleep this night To preserve the ecstasy of the endearing, loving, sensual, heavenly, heightened feeling of this moment I wrote this song… Wasted and wounded Whenever I see your face I ache to forget But you are in my dreams dear The night you cried in my arms I thought you were my destiny You scattered my ashes Into the barren sea How many years have I carried the flame? What was the plan for me? To be alone in all my strife? I desire to hold you in my arms I know you believe in god But this is the truth dear I didn’t believe Till I knew you How could there not be When I see an angel in front of me? Your wings cut off By the bleak world How many years have I carried the flame? What was the plan for me? To be alone in all this stark I yearn to kiss you in your bed Please God be good to me May we forever be in love Please send a cupid From heaven above As the stars die out May we shine our light From the darkness Of what we used to be How many years have I carried the flame? What was the plan for me? To be alone in my own hell I burn to be within your thighs I pine for you to hold me in your heart I long for you to hold me in your arms

On an island Completely adrift From responsibility And thoughts of reality Where I can hide myself In my perfect version of us Blankets of fantasy Free from your destructive heart Your heart I long to touch you in real life You don’t know what you want Always pushing me away Casting me out To my lonely shore Your eyes Pierce through my very soul Black as coal Speaking to me in tongues In reverie You can no longer hurt me So I keep this love buried Deep within my heart My heart I long to touch you in real life You don’t know what you want It hurts to love And not be loved in return It hurts to gaze into your eyes It hurts to see your smile So bad, it hurts You’ve made me crawl On my hands and my knees To achieve scraps of your heart There is an opening through the door Still, you push me away You tell me things That I shouldn’t know While keeping me at bay As you float away On your beloved ship It hurts to love And not to be loved in return It hurts to gaze into your eyes It hurts to see your smile So bad, it hurts I long to touch you in real life You don’t know what you want Always pushing me away Casting me out To the open shore

Soul in isolation I can hear you breathing down the hall Soul in isolation I can hear you whisper through the walls And if I had a mind to now I could call to you Or I could simply shut you out No more, would I cry, cry, cry I give you my time to kill But you always, always break my will Or I could sink a sleeping pill And in the morning could be sleeping still But most of you are much to ill Oh, way beyond a surgeons skill Her feminist hypocrisy As she let’s him kiss her soft skin In bondage to misogyny Though she truly thinks she is free Yet she keeps my arms at bay And I’m the poetic romantic man of her dreams Oh when you think of it, when you think of it We're all souls in isolation Alive in here, I'm alive in here I'm alive in here Oh, when you think of it, when you think of it Come here A word in your ear A word in your ear Back to the trees Back to the trees My big heart makes me feel small Wish I had a way to be free from you all I'd like to escape from reality death When will it come? When will it come? Words that rattle round my head Struck by lightning, someone said A diamond bullet in my head Right in the brain Are you right in the brain? Are they right in the brain? Am I right in the brain? Am I completely insane? Will I see the jailers face? Did my mother lead me to this place? Will I live to see her face? Will another come to take her place? In total isolation Surrounded by fears Too many muses, throughout the years I cannot touch, too many tears Isolation Surrounded by crowds In another world, head in the clouds I'm alive in here, I scream But you still can't hear I’m alive in here But I feel deader than dead I'm alive, turn on the light Turn on the light Are you afraid of what you’ll see? The real me Oh, when you think of it, when you think of it We're all souls in isolation Alive in here, I'm alive in here I'm alive in here Oh, when you think of it When you think of it We're all souls in isolation We're always searching for something Sweetest virgin now deflowered Before my eyes Now that I’ve seen the darkness in you When will you forever be erased from my mind? Dear, dear, dead days I'm longing for you