I felt like I fell into a dark and beautiful dream
My voice cracked
The night we hugged each other
And you were in tears
I could feel your quivering breast
Your sweet, wet, face pressed against my chest
And I felt the desolation of your life
In, this, your darkest hour
Run through my very soul
It seemed we were alone
Amongst the piercing, twinkling, white, stars
That would die out in time
In the obsidian, midnight, bleak winter, sky
While in your hugging embrace
You caressed my back, adoringly, rhythmically, smoothly, and sensually, with your soft, slender, supple, fingers
This was unexpected
How loving, sensual, and personal you were
Your heavenly loins pressed comforting and warm, in endearment, against mine
You spoke softly, sweetly, girlishly, and adoringly into my chest
My heart went soft, in warmth, like honey, at hearing your voice
Speaking as if we were already lovers
As I could feel your warm breath
The smell of the sweet, womanly, fragrance of your soft, thin, long, dark brown, hair
And all I could think is this is the best hug I have ever had in my entire life
I never want to forget this moment with you
So dark and exquisite
I hope I comforted you, like a blanket, in the warmth of my empathy and tenderness
The gloomy essence of your life and this exquisite moment echoed, so much
In my mind, that I could hardly sleep this night
To preserve the ecstasy of the endearing, loving, sensual, heavenly, heightened feeling of this moment
I wrote this song…
credits
from How Many Years (Have I Carried the Flame)?,
released April 18, 2023
Prose written, produced and performed by Jake McNeillie
Engineered and mixed by Beau Eastlund at The Golden Lab Studio Springfield, OR
Mastered by Thaddeus Moore at Liquid Mastering Eugene, OR
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